Mother’s Day and Loss

A very happy Mother’s Day to all mothers, sisters, aunts, grandmothers and all the great woman in this beautiful world we share. Today is not a joyous day for me. I lost my Mother unexpectedly in the August of 2 years ago and for me that has changed this day and what it means to me. Being a mother is a blessing. To create something and bring it forth into the world is something truly wonderful. And I respect and value that. But I didn’t get to wake up today and celebrate how great my mother is but who she was. I get three solid reminders (of course much more) that she has passed from this world and onto the next each year. Her Birthday, the day she passed, and today.

I sit here and I remember today and I remember her. I remember her everyday. Today I take some extra moments to honour the amazing woman that she was. I am sad that I cannot pick up the phone tell her just how great she is and that I love her. But she knew that. She always knew that and I live my life for her to still be continuously proud of me, as she always was. Loss is hard and I am still dealing with it, however, today I am not sad. I am so thankful I had such a wonderful woman that taught me to always be me, do what I want and, as she would tell me, spread my wings and fly. Because of her I am who I am today and I am where I am today. I learned to take risks and don’t look back with regret.

To my Mother, thank you for everything. I love you!

love and light – xo – H